Many times during the course of the year I am reminded of how lucky I am. This year is no exception. I have met and interacted with others in ways that I could never have imagined. I started 2010 with a lot of stress and a lot of melancholy. I end it in a similar fashion, but it’s different this time. Last year I could not comprehend why I felt the way I did, this year I feel sad but I know why. Aside from all of the things that I am going through I have a lot to be thankful for. I can of course go on a listing spree but the fact is family and friends are the key. Everything that I have learned I have learned through them and with them.
Never in a million years did I think I would like running. After knee surgery the running days were behind me. I have been blessed with a chance to rediscover this thing I dreaded. I was able to embrace it even if my brain told me I hated it, my heart told me otherwise. I started running because I was escaping something, and now running I have discovered that I no longer need to run.
I am really focusing on rediscovery this year. I dismissed a lot of things in my past. These events affected or influenced me more than I understood when they happened; now I feel I can start taking them into account. I never stood back and looked for how events changed me, I was too busy finding a solution or resolving the problem. This attitude has taken its toll on me hence the main reason why I greet this New Year on a sad note.
I plan to fight back. I plan to really take a look at my experience and make sense of it. I want to really delve into what makes me who I am. I do not want to start the decade the same way that I did the last one. In 2000, I had dreams and aspirations but no means or plan to get there. 2011 I am going to rediscover those dreams and aspirations and use what I have learned to make a plan and handle business. It is not going to be easy, but nothing worthwhile is.
I pray that anyone who reads this takes a moment to be thankful. But more than that takes a moment to rediscover what they want. When we look within ourselves we find not only how truly lucky we are, but also that there are a lot of things in there we never took time to appreciate. Discovery is defined as finding out information that was not previously known. When we re-discover ourselves we find many of the answers we seek had been there all along had we just taken the time to look.
Never in a million years did I think I would like running. After knee surgery the running days were behind me. I have been blessed with a chance to rediscover this thing I dreaded. I was able to embrace it even if my brain told me I hated it, my heart told me otherwise. I started running because I was escaping something, and now running I have discovered that I no longer need to run.
I am really focusing on rediscovery this year. I dismissed a lot of things in my past. These events affected or influenced me more than I understood when they happened; now I feel I can start taking them into account. I never stood back and looked for how events changed me, I was too busy finding a solution or resolving the problem. This attitude has taken its toll on me hence the main reason why I greet this New Year on a sad note.
I plan to fight back. I plan to really take a look at my experience and make sense of it. I want to really delve into what makes me who I am. I do not want to start the decade the same way that I did the last one. In 2000, I had dreams and aspirations but no means or plan to get there. 2011 I am going to rediscover those dreams and aspirations and use what I have learned to make a plan and handle business. It is not going to be easy, but nothing worthwhile is.
I pray that anyone who reads this takes a moment to be thankful. But more than that takes a moment to rediscover what they want. When we look within ourselves we find not only how truly lucky we are, but also that there are a lot of things in there we never took time to appreciate. Discovery is defined as finding out information that was not previously known. When we re-discover ourselves we find many of the answers we seek had been there all along had we just taken the time to look.
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