I asked a friend of mine if they thought I was obsessed about running.  Their  answer was yes…stating that I seemed to jump from activity to activity.  One just naturally leading to another and that it was  very clear when I was “into” something.  He also  stated that sometimes it’s a good thing and sometimes it’s a bad thing  but that he did think I went overboard.  It was  interesting that he said it could make me one dimensional.   That was one that I had never heard before.  He  said that if you only talk about one thing than you possibly alienate  others who are not “into” the same thing.  
Unfortunately he is right,  to a degree.  Maybe I have gone overboard, maybe.  But I see it as a season.  I  know in June/July I am all about cycling…it’s been that way since 2002  because the tour de France is on versus and yes I am the guy who wakes  up super early to hear all about the teams the performances and  hopefully catch some of the webcast.  Traditionally  during winter I simply eat a ton.  For Mexicans  its "tamales" season and those go straight to the ol’ gut.  Since  I can remember I would gain 10 – 15 lbs. during this time and then I  would transition into spring.  Spring I tended to  start slow to work my way back to cycling in the summer.  I would start with some team sports like softball tournaments that  would get me out but not kill me after my winter hibernation.  More recently (3 years approx) I started playing golf more frequently because warmer and I can hit balls most  days in the spring.  The ball goes further in good  weather and it makes no sense to be miserable and play during the  winter.   
Why would I pay $60 bucks to play a  course during the winter to have shorter distances, shabby courses and  less daylight to play?  During winter you  always…ALWAYS get stuck behind one of two golfers…the never quit guy who  hacks at the ball all day and it takes him 40 strokes to get onto the  green and an hour to read the wrong break, or the overachiever child and  parent.  Since Tiger would go play at three, so  do all children, and its not like you can tee off and fire at the back  of a toddlers’ head.  I really wanted to take out  the parent for not letting me play through but that’s a different story.
So going with the comment, yeah this running thing is new for me and maybe even an  obsession.   I have run  through heat, rain, and cold, dirt and road…it’s like this thing does  not have a season like everything else I am into.  Maybe  that is why it is seem by some of my friends as an obsession and I am  ok with that.  My day is long and the only time  that my brain gets a break is when I run.  When I  run it’s all about being efficient and focusing on the next step, that’s  it.  Pressure from work, school, family…the  hundreds of pages I am supposed to read this week…bills…phone  calls…texts…all the trivialities are life are closed for that time and I  am free.   
This obsession helped me get over a lot  of sadness and tragedy in my life.  These moments  to breathe I see clearly.  I see what I want my  life to be.  I want to be better.  I  want to be a good person not only for me but for others.   I want my life to mean good and spread positivity and not  hostility.  The mental breaks my mind takes allows  it to think outside the little box I keep it locked in all day at work  and at school.  This break keeps me humble, keeps  me honest and it translates that humility and honestly to my  relationships with others.  My brain can breathe,  it can take a pause and the endorphins are not to shabby either.
My “obsession” is also  infecting others.  Others around me are talking  about miles and shoes as opposed to liquor and drugs its like an epidemic and others are catching it.  My obsession is helping to change people for the good.  My obsession is helping me motivate not only myself  but others.  Instead of going to happy hour we are  organizing trail runs/hikes.  Instead of talking  about the next company party or next crazy night in Vegas we are talking  about the next goal, the next race, and the next milestone.
It made me so excited but  felt so foreign to have someone tell me that I motivated them on the  run.  I always have seen myself as a jerk or at  best a stand offish nerd.  I have never seen  myself as a motivator much less an inspiration to get off the couch, but  some people close to me have expressed this sentiment and all I can say  is that they are infected as well.  They are  infected not with running, but with trying to be better people.  For me this running thing has helped, it makes me want  to keep going no matter what.
Now tonight I had a reminder that I still have a long long way to go.  I unintentionally was causing someone grief.  This person means a lot to me and I would never want to cause or add to anyone's plate, unless I am serving awesome food..which could hypothetically happen, just saying.  I was being narrow minded and had tunnel vision regarding what actions or inaction to take.  Thankfully this person being a lot wiser than I am shared their thoughts and really put the spotlight on my ignorance.  For me it was a blessing in disguise, i was being rather heartless even though i did it with the best intentions.  Maybe i just need to become more aware of others instead of just reacting to them? We'll see. 
 
 
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